Change is a very weird thing. Sometimes it can alter the outcome of a situation, for the better or for the worst. Recently in my life everything is changing! I’m not saying that it is a bad thing, but what if it is?
Lots of different things are happening. The biggest one is that I am going to be leaving for Australia in a few weeks to go there for boarding school, and I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous. This does not mean just moving to a different country, but also changing schools, skipping ahead a grade in a different curriculum, living in Australia for the first time since I was five years old and moving away from my Mum and Dad.
I keep asking myself these questions: “What if I don’t like it? Am I ready?” The other day I was thinking to myself, and said “you know what, you’re never going to be ready for something until you push yourself to do it!”
In a lot of ways it will be a really exciting fun time for me. I hope to make lots of new friends and get to understand what it is like to be Australian. After living overseas for almost 10 years I am a bit of a mix of all the nationalities that have been in my life. Still Australian because I was born there and started my life there, but part Canadian from au pairs when I was young (thanks for my accent!), part Filipino from my nannies in Dubai (thanks for my love of singing!), part Arabic from all my friends at school (thanks for explaining Islam to me!) and part English, German, Russian, Pakistani, Indian, Danish and Swiss from my other friends around where I live (thanks for teaching me diversity!).
It will be hard to be living away from Mum and Dad for an extended period of time. While I have been to the UK for a couple of terms of school, this is now a permanent move. I will only be going home for holidays from now on. That is a scary idea and I know my Mum is not coping very well with this! But I think this is a good thing. It will teach me independence and courage and hopefully build a strength of character that I would not get if I just stayed at home. It will force me to make friends and build my own network out there in the big bad world!
I will also need to take more responsibility for my own health and ensure that I do all the right things for my diabetes.
Luckily my sister Jasmine will be with me. So I am not totally alone. And I will have extended family relatively close by which will be ultra nice to be able to visit them all as I have not been able to do that easily in the past ten years.
So in conclusion, whatever the outcome is from this change, at the end of the day if it is for better or worse, I can say that I pushed myself to do it and got out of my comfort zone. Change is the reason why people grow into the people they are today! I am looking forward to the challenge…….